420am mumbai to kuwait to cairo.
Watched some psychic adolescent adventure film ...called dark tower on plane.
As troubled kid my self i concurr...majical abilitys visionry powers..and dark forces wanting to ruin ya are real.
But look..its totally realistic you can recover...and become a agent warrior nerd child of god..
Get ya will effort cape
N...dream possable ray emitter..
Get the other cunts out ya head..
Tune ya star
Love who ya gotta love.
And isis be praised
That orians belt overdrive..
That zep tepi
That galaxy skyriver
Baby soul bubble
Egypts t shirts are interesting political spiritual logo iconic philosophys so far
Im intreugued as to there wider attitude..
More...mysterious than indias obvious ganesh shiva mandala stuff.
Ill investigate further..
And confer with the authoritys n alternative researchers.
Go on subway
Get a bus
Guy says ill show you
Horse ride in cheeper..
I fall for it cos he seems reguler n helped me get bus.
Fuk never follow a dude whos helping you
Invariably a hustle.
Sucker sucker sucker
Im sure th young man there is just expressing a underdog sentiment
Around self empowerment..
Regards th koran on the dashboard
Cult virtue signal.
Tell it like it iz wee bro.
Another wee bro
Selling hot cooked kumara
Which i thought weird in 37 degree.
Totally were kumera tho.
Had lunch with this local family..which was real cool..after i angrily ditchd th horse guy guide..
Cos he kept controlling me n selling me to his mates to walk up a pyrimid ect..
Looking back i spoze wasnt bad..just..
Not understznding value currancy ect..
I get shitty if i sence being scamed.
Famly guy there
But hes a truck driver..real generous.
Saw i was on my own..i hadnt had bfast either
Had pita bread n cheese hummis type dip n tomato n bean goop..fizzy
They live in big ghetto area called october 6th city edge of cairo.which i stumbled thru to get back bit dirty after winds n dust rubbish n stuff.
Normal peoples kindness..humanity
Can i reconcile human nature to these forces?
Its weird in foreighn countrys..i cant even see whats a cafe or restsurant
There kinda camoflageud..in th tumbly grot of broken masonry n donky poo..
Some good faces here
Lotta bellys goin on
And some strapping muscild physics too..
Egypt..is not ancient egypt..
Or anything to do with pyrimids realy
Im sure ancesters here..hauled brick or two up there for our lords tho.
Try n get a train...or info...
Get a bitchin mood on
Walk around metros n trainstations
Get a number wait in line
Wait three days..
Go to track 11 office
Usa doller only
Come back tomorrow
You want what?
What you want?
Come agaon tomorrow.
Go back...us doller only.
Seat one carrage one
Great innitiations...but i managed to get a coffee..a pita with non meat in.
And i can buy stuff from corner stores.
Th rest is a damn mystery.
Got m tickit to aswan..finally..
And..only took two days.
But im my own werst enemy and
Now i give beggers a bit.
Go hard soft core travel dude..
FUK MAN ITS INCREADABLE.!
Feel so greatfull for art. Th sorta experience priest classes may have got in th past.. We get to experience in intuitive forms inwardly. Cultures become saturated with information.. Th high knowledge Now populer..if u look for it. Spinning personal meaning Seems like A role only nobles could have conceived of in these other eras.
Runn8ng the gauntlet in secret passages of ya own psycho make up
Trap doors n
As is majic intention n
The whole courseing bloodstream of a thousand billion suns
In ya blood
Fibre of being.
Show quoted text Yes! We are functionaries for the propaganda arm of the Human Spirit! Show quoted text
Seems pretty hard to get anywhere in egypt acturally. Spent a day getting train ticket Went to station three times got massivly run around beurocracy. I can see why pple do package tours.. But..felt relief at th end. And going tuesday to southern town on nile. 12 hour train trip over night. Read a few forums bout same run around n problems by pple. So its not just me. Its strange here..i couldnt find money changeing place around corner Asked 6 pple...everything so discuised by grime and arabic signage thats not obvious...they say left side indicate with there hand.. It may mean two blocks away May mean next door May mean take th left and stay straight. Its hard...no one understands the map on phone...to orientate. Many circuler conversations about th same thing so ya stop asking. Just sometimes..ya step out A car comes toward ya Or ya sit down n get told to get up Or Ya go down stairs t subway and police says ya cant.. All that...everything ya do seems thwarted. Later after i finally got ticket i got in th flow..felt like a spell quest compleated..was so relieved. .took lots of cool photos.. Kinda drenched in urban aesthetics Th architechture..faces...sounds The men yell advertiseing there bus routes...its primitive. Very loud. Even enjoyed getting lost way back to hotel. Found how to get coffee..ya sit down out side in a chair..cant see th coffee shop or cafe guy. But they find you... Lotsa them hookahs going on. Lotsa that smell. Crazy dark alleys...lotsa shops on street..like india..bazaars. auto parts alley i found. Fine dust over everything...sand from desert.. Chill nights Not too warm in day yet. Been givin beggers stuff..a kid a pizza..ect Its a strange mix of old n new. ... Sleepin ok.. Quite like th city...down town. Big. But hope to see some ancient stuff. Museum today. Hows it goin..?
Ancient egyption symbolism
Them plaster faces where so th rich dead guy could remember his face when he came back in spirit
In th tomb...to do it all again.
Thats a toilet man outside the museum
Doing big wees..or whetting the concrete
As wet concrete settles dust..or appears clean fer a bit. They do that in india too.
The lady seems to be elevating the soft toy..teaching the statue about postmodern irony.
check out micheal tsarion beyond knowledge on youtube.
(amoungst many )
Regarding atonistic ( solar cult this gent set up..underpinning monotheism globally)
and currant global mind controll mechanisms.
Interesting passionate man.
Cant speak fer aton
what th fuk am i doin
Tourist hustle bullshit..
Playin out some childhood displacement..
N looseing self
In crumbling identitys
Being re sold as content on others powerlessness
Th past..the present
The illusion the truth
Gas cement asphalt
Able to bear
Externalitys equals death.
Sucker sucker sucker.
Conversion of all the werld inta money
The debt externalised
Ocean of suffering
Spirit world debt
Food for the moon
Been walking around downtown in a anxious delerium.
For 5 hours.
Cant find a seat
When i do..i get very rude miscommunication..or get ripped off.
I dont know what im supppsed to do.
Literally i cant find somewhere to sit..
Im fuking tired..grumpy oversensitive
Waiting for a train
To another egyption hustle .
Where im.supposed to get a boat ride
For hundreds of us dollers.
Ya pay someone they never have change
Ya sit down ya get told to stand up
Ya walk on a footpath ya cut off by a moterbike who looks at ya dirty.
Theres carbs to eat.
But ya dant order anytjong cos theres no way of knowong how t get served..or what ya want.
So ya keep walking.
Ya go inta dark foyers of apartment blocks to sit down alone
Someone comes in looks foul at ya.
Im turning into a zombie..
Beyond cheering up.
It all seems meaningless
Th shops ...selking the same crap..
Vanity items...civilised charades of statis..
Wobbling fat rolls of over fed greed..comfort...ignorance
mine n theres.
The head scarfs..pretty smart faces lips flash of eye
flash n bling on a t shirt
Macho yelling guys..doing a deal loudly..hollering taxis or whatever there bitchin about
Whats it all for?
This over population..buzz of human..
This low quality of life this urban economic machine program of birth
Endless growrh..at expence of everything..
What is this hive...most of us inhabit..
Unconsviously cut of from source..
future worth living.
Or surviving in
Some phase transition of core principles..values.
I like some of the buildings
Expressions on faces
Theres a shit load of flys that seem attracted in particuler to me.
Maybe thats why everyone smokes.
I got a seat in a large cafe finally
Me n th flys.
I might string it out fer ages..waiting for the train
People stub cigs out on anything everything
Id be in my hotel being miserable
but i had today to kill with no plans.
Cant engage with a tour operater without severe alergic reaction distrust n the feeling of being ripped off.
Not sure how to overcome this bias.
See egypt..at all.
Maybe my mood will change
Ill feel safe n realistic again.
Eat something..talk to someone..be socialised.
Remember who im supposed to be
And not get overcharged by a arab on the take.
Dont get me wrong
Theres some awsome people here
The tourist thing is so entrenched im nothing but a resourse
not a person.
It wasnt worth comeing.
But here i am.
I got 7 rusty bottle caps from th base of the great pyrimid i spoze
Flannel and tea spoon from th museum gift shop..
Thats right !!....beloved
A flannel and spoon
What a dandy!
Its realy weird not fitting in extreemly
Ya considder going to english language films like "jumanji"
In th day
You resist th urge..
Wander pointlessly to a mark you accedently made on google maps
And take a photo there (the one says samer)
Yep...globo traveller pilgrim.
Youll work.out how to drive yaself in unfamilier cultural fogs
Or ya wont
Till the airoplane..back to the other strange place.
Why am i doing this?
That old guy was destind to put fish in my mouth
N prawn n salid in a pita pocket n overcharge me n watch me eat in that dark ally.
So im a ungreatfull twat..
And evening softens the grind of walkin about.
I still stand outside juice places
N bakeries..looking smelling getting ignored..
But sometimes i get lucky..
Had a awsome carrot juice th other day.
Then some guy..says loudly from a cafe
Welcome to egypt.
He means it..
But im in zombie disasociative mode
Chatting to you..
I cant respond..im not feeling it.
I walk off..
But it was nice of him to single me out loudly infront of his mates.
so ya get th train..manage to cross the roads somehow
Get told it was at another station by friendly jelp desk guy
Who was wrong.
Acturally helps..yep right place.
Half hour wait
Go get coffee.
5hatll be twice what its worth anywhere else fer you buddy..
Oh no i dont have change.
I walk off.
If ya a snak bar at th railway stTion and you cant give me change ..you dont make th sale..
Show him th 50 pound note.
Can you give me coffee..and change that?
Dosnt look up
He slowly..makes coffee..never looks up..
Dude i showed you the damn 50..!
James walks off.
Third coffee stand now.
I show her th 50..
Make sure shes understood th vast implications of th matter even tho we dony speak th same language.
She looks at me.
I get th bad instant coffee.
One of th other guys comes up to me now and wants me to pay him for his wasted non sold coffee.
I vlearly tell him to fuck off. Infront of th police.
He goes all outspoken..i walk off.
Stupid lazy imbecile coffee snak guys..
Youd think i work for them
Im in th train..go to th loo to
Pee..theres water everywhere..puddles on seat thats how they "clean"
I flush..standing up
A torrent of high preasure power thrust gushs straight at my groin on my jeans..soaking my jeans n legs.
..th ass washer obviously i pressed th wrong button.
It reminds me i may need drinking wster for th 12 hour train trip.
Steps out..aquardly dripping.
Train pulls way
Sweeper guy (a true ally) urgently gesticulates for me to dash
Which i do and smoothly step on to rapidly accellerating away train in th nick of time.
What a day.
Nothing was stolen
Or hit by a car
Spoze independant travels spozed to be like this.
Good for ya intrepid blog no one will read .
But ya find it helos to write.
Maybe thats the same as art..
Dont matter if theres audience
Ya need to do it..like setting the universe right..
Reconc8leing forces..expressing the inexpressable..or getting close.
Spoze coffee dudes at trainstations might have that instinct..maybe im lucky to have that will to compute all these annoying failures in some metaphysical tangent of psycho emotional existential brainfart..
Or maybe being cross at my own malfunctions in how to cope or drive this guy needs a outlet.
Rareifyed sub cultural neurosis..honed
To imaginary possabilitys
If a possable is imagined ..
Does it mean it exists already?
Imagination being a kind of virtual actural in awareness.
Imagined is still something after all.
Thought form n feeling shapes.
So what are we realy..
This word nature
masks of state...former and present.
Ediface of meglomaniacal one percent.
Self styled intergenerational cult.
..in th museum in cairo..
All 5h toys n finery of the elite..all party political self god deity creation (artists would make)
And this small room for the farm gear..the nets hoes ploughs stuff like that.
A sacred river plane called khem..the black land
Cos th fertile soil of flooded delta annually
All the surplus of the hive..goes to elites..
While for thousands of years..the agricultural labourer..
Woman man child
Acturally enabled them priest woofters n there owners.
With lives in union of cycles..once were nomads.
Just saying...historys a con game.
On the way to abu simbel (3 hour starting at 4am!!)
Theres these hill n erosion stones like sphinx n pyrimid..but natural.
All this was forrested in thousands of years ago..
Interedting 5hat feeling of large figures
Juxtiposed to the small of your own.
Then inturnally the largeness of ya self
Like that similtainious expanding contracting state
In infancy dreams
Falling infinite smallness
But enlarged massiveness too.
Mr felluca captain there..
Who started the dawdle with a long lunch while we watched him...im impatient cos i was already waiting 40 min fer my hosts hook up lateness.
then he hustled for tips..
I love a bad ride and being shaken down n guilt tripped for there economic state..
Before receiving any kinda boat ride.
There bastards..loveable..but tourism sux.
I jump in th nile cos its hot.
Its fukn delishious.
I get told off
Your kidding right?
This is what its come too..
Cant swim in th nile on a hot 40' day.
But they look pretty. Thats the main thing keeping up appearances.
Aswan up nile being a ancient gateway to desert and africa..sudan ect
Lotsa spice markets..this one being fumigated with incence on coals.
No half measures!
Funny to think that alot of these ancient tribul traditions found there way inta white christian colonialism .theres a root here
Egypt religeon formation
Ethno botanicly theres acacia tree that bleeds sap..leaves expell a gas if eaten.
Acacias got alot of dmt in it.
Reckin the ancient egyptians burnt harmala as incence
Acacia tree of life tea
They totally did ceremonial magic
As did mosus (a egyptian pharoh btw)
Ancient of human animal.
Not a nano tech..communion wifi
A plant body cosmos relationship.
But oil technology cults..are pretty afraid of that.
A addict culture...terrofyed of addiction.
Keep it safe eh..
Economic metrics set you free ..perpetual growth
Theres a reckoning happening as we get upgrades..see clearer..
i dont know shit about shit
Call that humility if ya want
As soon as i get a perspective attitude..
Its criss crossed with multiple other possabilitys...in time.
I like listening to heaps of researchers
Orthodox n so called alturnative.
Spoze one precious thing bout humanity
That quantumn wet ware up on the antenna spine eh.
Took a walk like a black sheep
Dared not pay to enter temple.
Walkd th back roads of arab town ghetto.
half preditory hustle
Half friendly male aggressive botchd communication.
Cant order a tea without mass misscommunication. Inflated price
Even th kids intimidate . Order ya round.
Cabin ship guy flicks a can inta th nile
I scowl at him
Come on man..its ya river ya goddess
Ya job even.ya wanna flick trash in?
In front of me?
Sorry sir..big grin..like fuk you whitey.
Mass tourism a factory conveyor belt of shame.
Still..im enjoying my window seat in bed to the river glideing past.
Listening to terrance mkenna going on about metamorphisis n techno alchemy potentials dimentional fluxs civilisational eco disaster triggers to mutogenic biological evolution
To survive outselfs
museings from 90s.
My golden age
(Tho was wretchardly painfull at th time)
Theres th touts waiting to get us.
They cant see me cos of mirror reflecter.
Travel takes me out of routines of safety habit..
Puts me uncomfortably in front of my own patterns
Emotions and mental challange.
Roots of pathology..the hard stuff.
Is where ever i am of course
Some prolonged rituals force exposure
There isnt a theropist
There aint no guide.
Theres a coupla friends
Most dont want too..in them selfs
But thats what it is.
Were all there reLy.
Thats what art is
Being hurt in a hurting world
Trying to make sence of it..
While polishing the facade
Egypts not entirely safe or good.
Its like india is fairly restimulating.
What am i doing wrong?
What am i running from
What would i like to change
To love me better.
About knowing whats real and whats false
Rattling around in my reaction judgement heart
Seeing ..oh god..im way down the dangerous rabbit hole again.
Hope in not knowing
Could all be so healing!
With out th religeous bits
Just had a meditate with this guy.
Islam preyer just hollerd thru th air
As i decid3d to sit.
In this temple..my body
But this structure
Is set n fenced off
So i got some peace.
Seeing all this pomp n bluster of ancient
Religeus devotion ...one up man ship n statecraft
Piety..propaganda meaning history
Makes me realise its all baby steps
in human potential.
Like..what we are..as babys as adults as elders
What this form comeing
Or even transmutation into more subtle forms..spirit vehicle
Its all inturnal..with out authentic practice
Well..includeong getting lost
Theres nothing that aint corrupt
Without sincere humility
Resulting letting go to some more fundamental law.
So for me..
Will humans survive technology
Harmony look like in a birth
Or massivly potent existence sub bubble
Were as good as our problems
Im a middle class tourist in de nile
Valley of kings
Them or us?
I want reality
Arts like history
And illusion and lower and higher
Human condition similtainiously
At differemt time waves
We can only exist in th conditions that cosmic n terrestrial patterns n relationships allow
Widen peripherys ..extinctions monocult
Pyrimid schemes of management
Museings on intra contact
Recent earth time.
Its about time
Big shaft down
What all the pharohs do
Go all...cavey apon death
Pomp of the belief sysyem small print
Escaped the shitty town.
Although parts of me are objectivly observeing..impartal.
.as it is
Glad to be experienceing this!
Parts of me are..
I hate these guys..the scam hustle dishonestly ..confrontation..
Still..great street "art."
Was it safe?
Ancient theme paRk tourism with 5h irony of the old m3ga wealthy
In th land of the poor.
I get it..
So how do ya visit with out being part of the us n them.
Im in train reguler carrage back to cairo.
Security dudes gave me tea at valley of kibgs a guide a wee bread stick n feta.
Th tour agemt although maverick shot gun incomprehensable
Did deliver on hos program n tickets..
Th swanky kitch cruise boat was pretty good deal n relaxing.
I didnt know..
And ya hounded fer cash incessantly on every corner..paraciticly.
Found my self yelling in a aggressive guys face to leave me alone.
We hada butch staredown confrontation.
Ya say no to th horse carrage or taxi
6 times..theres a guy right in ya physical space cutting ya off theres 6 of them
They think by yelling taxi at me
Where you from
Is gunna make me want to ride with em.
The weird thing is
If i did want a taxi..i probly couldnt find one..who understood where i wanted t go.
So i tend to walk
Occaisionly let my gaurde down n meet someone.
Things work out.
Never spoke to a woman.
Poor old arabs..
Whats to be done..
In a cafe tvs on.
Its a show with a handsome woman being victimised crying..th guy keeps grabbing her throat.
Yep..couples were watching it.
Dont get me wrong we are twisted mofos too
You survived again.
This whole middle eastern mutation
Mind controll belief virus..
Constipated ape heirachy of feudal lords global farm.
Shadow ego diatribes
Burker ridder soul hide
We call nature
In bed..some bed
Product of screeming in the street for a guy to leave me alone.
You know..the guy yer in jail with.
ya dad..who hates ya
In this case the economic oppression of poor country
My white man privledge
Someone doesnt like much
Whos that then?
Feel like i fuck it up all the time
Includeing saying that.
Its like depression throws a filter over who i am..
I can sence the architecture..
Lost the person i am in here..
Cant seem t relate to anyone..connect
With negative vibes worrying
Watch th breath..
Is all it is
Sun conscious self
My hearts skippin beats..
All part of th delivery mechanism son
Be fruitfull multply
Immune system n energy cycles
I cant pretend to understant..
Reduced to the shadow of my bloated ego..
Take it away
And...flat 2d time..crumpled..memory ..
A fake sighting
Spheres we see you..
Pyrimid arcitect..spin megnetic code multidimentional space
I could unhook from his typical mundane suffering
That blessing acceptance
Monstrpus materialisms cuboid conclusion
Set meaning in tiny packets of false limit n fear
.flow land..all gift life
Grain fruit meat vegetable
Atoms as super processers
Computer solar system
To be sure
How can there be seperation
I am onewhen i notice what im noticeing and
makeing it up fluidly
as i go
governed by underlineing
Feed bavk loops
Links to genocide
Alchoholic skitzoid deveststion
Bio metric mother state
Articulating self change
In lessons of hairloss
Pain needs help..
Intelligence a primary rythem..secret warmth ..language lips my dna profile
Sad packing up
Theres something wrong with me
Was it good to be born?
And..relative meaning forbids god
A world behind this stutters a child knowing before ya face was
It was good brillient n troughs n.peaks n you can rationalise the meltdown as much as ya science thinks it knows
But our best are weakening th majic barriors
Ecternaks build high demigods of demon lie
But so obvious we vote with our hands
Telling of times forgotten
Thresholds catching my foreskin in th zip of collapse histry
Dunno who th fuk t be
Even t m self
Too much identity confusion
No body knows ya like ya self
Thats th problem
Its inacurate diagnosis
Ya utterly mad
And there never was sane or normal
Everything is only about money
And we will kill everything giving it to you lord
Sorry im alive
fuck you bastard.
on a happeyer note
All will change
In every self conscious self observed
Re flecting bad patterns in a loop
Is there a bad pattern in nature?
Idea courseing curse or blessings in fundamental cosmic void popping nano seconds
Vice like screeming babys in the universe
Law as we imagine
But cant know
Embody the situation
This is it eh