India (chapter two)

Airport art. From naga land. ..they had carving totems too..very pacific.

Mural in train alley.

Second 90 day stint. Egypt to cairo..sick. But with good airplane films All strangely echoing themes of men with kids..and evokeing emotional weepyness.. 1 manglehorn (al pacino) 2 infinitly polar bear 3 security (action no brainer..but hes protecting a 11 year old girl..) So all these disolveing redundant male architype roles fed back to me..eh... In a vacuume sealed autonimous airport faximilie of life...or is that just my identity makeover matrix globalist agenda spreading Make it back jubulently without any bad stuff..cept a last gesture from egypt man authority..customs pat down strikeing my nipples forcefully. It seemed...fuk i hate egyption guys...i glowerd at him.. Saying mentally.. Dont fukin touch me like that creep.! Dont care what uniform you got on. I dont have a bomb in my tit dude. Googled rape in egypt..yep..suspician confirmed. Massive child abuse n male n femal rape stats...thatll explain sone of the dark vibes. And we rememver the cheery cathlic background hum.of ya ruined famly..and Psycho standover fsmly violence of ya own pacific state house ghetto.. Which was a utopian privledge of course in the 70s. .with last of my energy off plane..went on tuk tuk tooon local crounded train.. Sewer smells n crouded rubbishy frantic street. Familier homely! But i like it..its fun..seeing being with th reguler pple transiting. At hotel..where i left bike there pleased to see me.. to pay up obviously fer storeing bike.. Which doesnt start and has bits pinched from it and is coated in grime n dust from atmosphere I go to small hot room. And fer two days in dark drift in infected dark warm sweaty lump rusty barbed wire throat feeling infection.. In cheapish hotel. Finding th cairo antibiotic starting.. Still sleep in life review kinda memory identity storyboard..some inturnalised confrontational throat chakra pyrimid mummy action. Whats true ....whats false....psychological origins of evil Edges bend..judments collapse You see ya self As a kid Or soul..timeless Memorys rush back ..how loss Agitation Fear Amger judgement criticism expectation.. All.. Block..this sublime freedom A glimpse of Some other creatire Th real you..the timeless soul..kid..being. Just visiting. Cathartic discharge of a ritual sick..in body. How graced to start again dispite that ever preasent shadow..great teacher. Indian streets swirl.in a million moods.. Sometimes hostile filthy apathetic Then at a different hour..modest kind professional helpfull Then..money hungry...and every eye on ya.. But wouldnt get anywhere..without the enmeshed generosity help and openess. I dont know any hindi... Its amazeing im getting by at all! Dusk theres moments of play lightness civility..pple end work.. hang out A chai with a guy...a fella buys me a mango juice in th middle of day..when i finally emerge..bloody good. As if th universe was saying... Its a relationship..its not all about me spending...but just being here. A contradiction to feeling like a walking cash machine .ladyboys hussling fer coin. Firm commanding clap clap clap! I give em 5 roops. There was eye contact. A photo with a chip maker boiling chips in huge couldron veg oil. .a cell phone shop help..maybe the network will process my number when they get round to it. Directions tomorrow for bike journey. Spokes on bike had to have repair work someone or potholes..had broken 6 of them on one side..was feeling unballanced. All sorted.coulda been done on purpose just so i could be escourted to th repair guy..but..im too suspicious. Glad it was sorted out..about 20$.. saw him do it..kinda cool...watchin th repair. Maintainence not getting wiped out on th road. Street samosa pretty good... Little things..guy gives ya sloppy sause dribbles down ya leg..did he do that on purpose cos they dont like me? Whole shop stareing at white guy.. Is th laughing pointing at me like fun or..ahh ...mean. Shit i gotta eat too! esp when sick.. Didnt eat fer 35 hours..sweating n moaning in bed. Thats th down side being only white guy in town Everyone notices ya..pretend not to if there polite Stares if they dont give a fuk Often glowers darkly from hairy hunched youth on motobike. Different than egypt..more..hmm safe? Lots more well wishing friendlyness if ya engage. I love the atmosphere of openess on street. Everythings kinda on show.. The weilder th sewer the flour grinder The preyer shrine.. The macine tool shop Knife sharpener Everyones kinda lookin out..of there shop..or hanging arbitarily Or playing a game in a circle on a cell phone..giggling.. Or ...any number of chaotic weird innocent stuff.. In th dust Open sewers n honking horns With sequined bling n repose of jaw..lofty looks or Mumbled hellos... Just a average crappy modern developing town. Werkin folk..doing there think as village.

..maybe that level of availability n function is not with us in nz dunedin.. th west. Were all so removed from being of service or needed in th competion of economy.. Frontage of web review..peer apraisals n psi ops of media ego spin. Shit..people here just do. ..get on with it. In th shit. They probly dont notice anymore. THe galaxy phone shop next to ye olde male barbour wooden box guy. Or Fancey saree shop next to bakery. And assorted street fryed things guys. Dogs hangin in warm sun gravel from a half finished repair on a crumbly house... All left on chaotic street. Its a hell of a neihbourhood..! I was so glad to be back ive been realy cross n offended heaps of times already.which i kick myself for Im a reactive dick..but .. It is challangeing being ill. Still..."give me the money" Seems to be th catch phrase.. Which is before hospitality implys im not gonna pay at th hotel.. Ya think somewheres decent..cos they wipe th floor.. And have suits But there as clutchy n preditry for the pretence of what passes fer a classy joint around here. Panval..outside mumbai. Feeling betterish..needs basicly met..and Off to elora caves on th bike..if i can get gmaps going. Im tetherd to needing internet big time..interms of logistics. ..a ancient carved tourist zone of antiquity in a canyon...on way to agra. Taj mahal....then varanasi. Thats the next few weeks. plan.

JUST

SO FUKIN LUCKY TO BE PRESENT

HERE NOW

WITH THESE PEOPLE

YOU PEOPLE

THE WORLD SEEMS LIKE A MAJICAL DIMENTIONAL PROBABILITY OVERLAY

EQUAL HORROR

AND TRANCENDANT MAJESTY N DIVINE RIPEINING.

Its all sooo beuatifull...

Its all too beuatifull...!!

THE INNER AND OUTTER SYNERGISE THE STEP

WE MAKE OURSELFS MAKEING EACH OTHER..

IN INTIMATE SUFFERINGS DEPENDANCYS AND UNDERSTANDINGS

THIS COMPASSION

WITNESSING HUMAN INTELLIGENCE

NOT MENTAL VIRTUAL HYBRID LINEAR.

BUT

FULL NATURAL SLOW DEEP REAL.

ARTS LISTENING THRU TH VEIL

TRANSLATEING IN OURSELFS

OTHER

ANCESTERS CALL SPIRIT WORLD

AS IF THERES ANY OTHER.

MAKE THE LANGUAGE

ENERGISE THE FLOW

Accepting shit as it is

Understanding what that..is

Might be.

(Life work there.)

Quick note.

Methane permafrost melt

With upper atmosphere hi energy beams

Arctic sea temp riseing heaps

Super volvano detonations as probable

Elite fix

Manufactured global winter..

Versus run away climate change.

What artists have known fer thousands of years

SELF REINFORCING FEEDBACK LOOPS

(Crystslising to whole cultures even)

Guy macpherson wellington talk

Or a more succinct over view

Overview

I like this guy cos he opted out n farmed a permaculture farm ..

And is a anarchist

As a top academic scientist...the heirachy he has trained in..has not deterred his ability to truth tell.

Got a nose fer that..

But some will live a wee techno topia in a bunker.

Im having a past life regression

A weird psychogeographic cultural integreation with memory..of..

Somewhere else..bottom of the planet where i live...but most of my genetic history..is european..also indiginous at some relitivly recent time..

Any self help group would agree

Admitting youve a problem.is the first step.

Since when was death a problem anyway

For a species...a planet..anyway..

A spiritual mythology..pantheon of astro theological countings creening necks at distant points..

Advanced math...some..knowledge inhearited from previous civilisations

And time...

What of time mumma?..what are all the babys for mumma?

Do we wake up in a shiney rainbow dimention..far far away with everyone we ever loved and nice angels who telepathicly offer comfort?

(Or for that matter mid class glitz hotel trashy pomp fer raj n baba)

Its a blessed n increadable journey.

Everything..as it is...the people

The land

The mind

So greatfull lucky and kind.

Thank you thank you thank you

Suger cane juice.

Pani puri

Yeah so given the sobering

Severe

Irreversable...imminent n

Catastrophic collapse of our imaginary world.

Even with AI n mars probes n mega rich vampires n all that.

Its about...as it ever was

Personal accountability

Journey of the soul

All is gift

None of it mine

And just a privledge n honour to be witness.

Does our transindental witness zip back to alpha centurei? Th peleides?

Cosmic nurserys?

Or ever wrathfull phantoms of a doomed acifiyed planet..no way of upscaleing th karma cognition to next level..to ascend as it werre

All too linear i expect.

Were either all loved infinite creatures of magnificence

Damned lowly sinners.

Who can tell these days.

I know my own flip flopping software malfunctions

Is incomplete upgrades.

AS IT IS

Sort of implys take everything assumed away

Clear view whats left outside of me n my.

Nearly impossable..

That neo cortex thingy...jeesus who installed that!!

Pretty aware at this juncture

Of my dependancy..of insulation

My independant (personal excess cash affords) individually masks

Oil fed empire ego self.

Good job if ya can get it..fer planet bacteria..maybe a insect..

A fly structure.

Yeah behelzebub..thats me.

Divine temporary life blip.

Jetting (albeit melancholie) thru village structure developing werld....

Privledge cowboy..albeit..alot less so than some indian tourists ill add.

Yeah..get ova ya self..could be ignored at home..screeming away at th end of th house while ya mother gets her career saving th world.

Art that lovely psychic commody war zone of aesthetic choice..intellugence

And refined processed disapointmrnt

Turnd

Self will n manifestation.

This illusion...

When everything falls away.

Revealed

Raw death

Illuminating creative..transformational.

Behind everything

Pain

Amxiety

Neurosis

Fear

Neglect

Disease

Hatred

Ignorance

Denial

Class

Privledge

All them socialised lies we reinforce

Cos everyone else does.

Its normal.

I realy dont matter

Cept to me

A tiny amount of others.

Hideing away nz sensitives.

Makeing up the adult story..

In th post colonial bully hive of fuktards.

Pompous pc robotic automotrons

On auto suggestive clone farm

Wireless.

Lifes a ecstatic strange delerious crystal clear dance

Wakeing dream phantasm of co created natural forces..

Pulled together from a material dimention..in local self defineing space..

Its all we know

But theres probably heaps more to it we are missing

Cos of our narrow bandwidth

Culturial bias groupthink

Unconsciousness

Singuler

Collective.

Yep

No great answers here..

Gods great !

(insert meaning system of yer choice in that term)

Were all fucked!..planet fever

Loops cascade

Its not even nessesarily our fault.

Fizzy cosmic froth

Reflecting something

Made of the mind

Alive

In which it froths.

Holographic

So big profit vampire

Makeing spaceships

Farm you n me till th end

Around now.

The toys at christmas

Always fuk out pretty quick.

In reality

Im at a typical plastic table

On plastic chair

Going to elora caves.

Where perhaps pple used to virtie signal there political godliness fer there set of ruler elites

Aka art..technology.

Perhaps there was a pious uplink in there over th 1000 years of sectarian wership

Perhaps

Some crazed poor monk saw thru th insane monkey bullshit.

Smiled...kindly

Tryd not to be used

Killed

Venerated..or ignored.

anything else there likely to do to ya.

Anyway

My privledge...lookin at a countrys past relics...feeling like this is the

Past

Of it all

Terrance mckenna

Post history rant

Strange attracter pulling from future

Terrance sound bite 98

Ok..so my fairy god mother.."twanky"

Suggested in her way

That ...rather than imminent heat death of planet n run away feedback loops already underway..

(Keep on shoppin yall)

Ahh

What is life anyway..right?

I mean...WHAT IS LIFE

Even if it ends as us.

A brief flurrish..on a rock.

Speaking of rocks..this one kailash cave

Named after th mountain..ca4v3d from the cliff..over 2000 years ago takeing 900 years i think.

Fukn impressive.

Kinda mystifyed me with th lingum cave.

I like my religeo anthro tourism to have metimifisical cock n pussy milk bath symbolism.

Na truly...i felt it.

Symbolism thats literal as it is universal.

Its real dark in there..inturnal space.

Smooth worn rock floor..pillers..

Scale.

Got me thinking..the equivalents of "carving" today.

Information sculpting..data..bio tech gene design..light even.

All that s i fi paranormal narritive of uploading ya self to a another dimention..

Of course

The recent ancesters knew this already was that. Without th gadgets....think that edge is why mans religeon is so fizzy about death god n soul..afterlife..

Maybe womans religeon would be bit more present embodyed..would cash machines be psychotheripists too?

Give hugs..do longterm service arrangements fer protection n submission to alpha egos..

I was in a shit mood tday.

Slept in a stone monks cell..

Was gawkd at by indian famlys..

Selfie selfie!

This as sanctifyed as it is..is just another famly outting n trimket sales point.

Im tuneing in..to intent..worship..artistry..math..

And eery chambers awsome leeching rock dribbles..its echoing a minimal natural aesthetic ..of fundamentals..for me

Absoluteism...

I reckognise my own singuler search or feeling for reverence mystery

the sacred.

Wanting that to be central..even in silence.

Perhaps it is already.

Imagine...having nothing..being a 12centry bhuddjist monk in a stone cell..ya whole life.

Or a rate payer in port chalmers.

Whole time im recogniseing im vibeing on "nature"..erosion time elemental stsin..th edges of surfaces..the discordant with th articulated..contrasts..

In aotearoa..the sacred spaces for alot of us are raw..not synthesised.

Like caves stelagnites

Mountain trains avalanch..river rock pools

Swirl ..coastline cliff bush n forrest.

Whats left after the realestate market anyway.

Thats why the retarded kid

The paraplegic

The mentally ill

The successful social achiever

Are all as important as the well adapted normal ignorant.

Cos

Unformed information..has as much raw content as formed made.

In fact..

We usually just ego fuk the shit oitra anything we turn our hand too cocking it up entirely.

Lemmie be a hunter gather

Die young wen i can still root n forrage and it means something

..dunno..

Civilisation..was a mistske.

As a kid i was morosely upset at th lack of trees on th plains and hills in chch.

Couldnt understsnd how any of this town was progress at all.

I liked saphire n steel mind you..dr who..

Oh yeah..this iz my blog..im gunna wank on as much as i need seeing as im depressed travling alone in fat white middleage loner no famly everyone hates me privledge.

Seriously..no social context..outside of a visa card..what can i say..im not driveing drunk.

Still social context may be a bit ambitious in a robo hive of virtual meem cluster interface n isolation self centred conformist right wing strut

Victim slave children.

If we were all passionate maori warriors and told th brittish n th globalist agenda to fuck off

Grew organic veges n wild meat

Gene resurrected birds..

And

Sang more aswell as read up to date periodicals concerning star telepathy.

Yeah

Ride my whale.

Sleep in my car.

i do

Its a hi ace van.

Ahhh so tel us about love master

(Parodying a time when people spoke freely)

Love my child

As destructive as creation itself.

It starts with ya mother

It never realy ends.

Beware

Militiristic monotheism

Material acculation seperation

That..vain echo of hearing ya self hearing about ya self hearing

Organism..self determines

Best route.

Others part of it..but peripheral to inner.

Related however.

It would appear there is only you

But thats apearing to a false entity.

Infact theres no one there.

Whats there is water in a stream

A death in the trenchs 1918

A influenza death in the jungle after fritz visited.

Love..when im the breath n sun n

Wind n collideing galaxys in fast forward

When

I need you to need me

as needfull things need

Body requirements

Trust obeying giggles.

Knowing itll go to shit

Knowing it cant last

Makeing a effort anyway

Cos we love you

Theres nothing else to do..stick around

Report..no one listening

report...hear ya self burble bullshit

Report..

Kindly suppose ya better than ya feel

Whats the measure?

Love cos

Umm were mamels and thats the biochemicle soup we jive on..

Although it could be..a entity from between versions of ourselfs collectivly fractal peering in thru the tulpa cam angle

The one th one the one

Eternal flow

Energy body

Grains of sand

Echoing feedbacks echoing feedbacks

Intencifying in dencity

Woops theres the dna libary all over me skirt.

Sacrifice empathy forgivness

Honesty commitment willingness

Service..stupidity wizdom

Cooking cleaning..spending alot of money

Not doing what ya want to all th time

Admitting ya wrong

Admitting there wrong

Inability to make it right

Laughter

hopelessness

..and failure

Success being

a candidate at all

Baby.

Ultimatly..love

About shareing being alive self acceptance

And accepting

judgemental creeps

Love

Safty

Early home life

Violence

Guilt

Anger resent distrust

Shame

Abandonment..

Problem yer always a problem .

Love

Acting addict sociopath

Criminal

Steal

Hurt

Normal fuckers.

Love

That kid

Burnin down th house...tryd so earnestly

YA GOTTA TRY T BE GOOD AY

default

soaked in other ..made being born.

abortion.. womans choise

Good..obey ..conform..submit..good

Relinquish..

Play th game

bad.

Power.

Storm

Flood

Wind

Deceit lies

Horror

Acceptance..

Flower

Sunset

Breeze

Bigger picture in everything

Sketching.. very good student.

understand

the way

took my own hand

in my heart kinda from future or something

sane..observer

Weve made alotta decisions together me n this guy

He looks out fer me .

Hes majic.

fuk with majic.

Ya cant

A start u

biggot tax ring

Na.

make it ya self.

Get a bit of faith

Help

But generally love looks like a soul having a life time

As th conditions permit.

As it is.

A wee weird majic is not realy real.

Be nice

Even if ya a bloody awfull

(Fukin stupid ass hole of a website .two hours uploading shit painfully slow n it crashs..goddamn i said some good reportive scenery)

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Try n find coffee fer doodle diary ritual Four story dept store..air con.. Very mid class..with its own beurocracy too...what ever ya buy hasta get bagged send down stairs verifyed..checked By a team Guys in uniform hover at ever step ya make Ask advice..amd they own you.. Dont move sir.. No! Dont move..im just finding out. There lovely But Getting help often means expending alot of energy on the helper..who will not understand. Ok im being ruthless But...its insane th layers n levels. The streets like mad max..chortling churning matrix of multitude..spagghetti flows...with grit. Belching smoke.. Kitch tradgic glam.. Little packets of chewing tobacco n pan.. Got a peeled cucumber from a guy... Vegetables...bit of dipping salt fer that

Real thick lassi..with spoon n wee almond on. A jalabi..a engorged syrip starch thing..bleeding suger n colesterol. Been in india for 14 weeks. Still everyday theres insane shit that surprises me.

Megga horrendous political dance off from back of truck..street party. Politicians trying to buy festival religeous fervour...with big bass crap music..audio assult..the kids loved it.

Disco beats of infant heartbeat machine Truck in celebration Wheeling down road..cops twirling fingers..directionally Relevant Socially! White foam spreys from dancing boys Hi preasure ejaculations.. Some toxic agent no dought steriliseing them. Drinking orange juice..gleefully The mangled wrecks of road warrior trucks.. The market junction.. Suger cane diesel push me pull you rattle.. Throb of royal enfield Sensations of Sweat...under jacket Wind of accelation..cooling and heat similtainiously The sensual Material

World One day..ya try 10 atms None werking Next day try th first..it gives abundantly. Not even ya state bank!... Friendly dude selling chineese crap fer girls outside. Wee glitz mirrors n stuff. Trash.

This country runs on trash bling..and munted trucks...bellys in stained singlets.. Smuggled woman in auto rickshaws.. Sarees hideing them.. Expressionistic paintjobs in hotel rooms Ceiling fan mantra chakras Throaty throb of th motobike (Mine dont do that) Childs emo sheets proclaiming i love you so much.. Its all too much Theres no hideing. Good god Mother allmighty. This horendous hybrid human mutant circus..desperation n goodwill Skills n ignorance Chalm n vulgarity And thats just me! Fluttering flag Clink of suger cane grinder machine Boys rush up when im asking google where to go Welcome to my country!

And some coal powerd neclear facility over there..when that dont shut down..n th infrastructure grinds t halt..itll boil n burn fer decades poisining fer hundreds of miles and sending radiation inta th atmosphere..like fukushima..so all these power plants are death sentences fer..well the world realy. Cos who trusts a govt who cant install sewage or water..but shell b right with neclear waste n emitions.

..privledged lil white boy from clean green land but..yeah..na. were fukd mate.

Junior mech..and road gang .its facinating to see cival infrastructure erectected by hand...binary bits of big development..human labour. And the shanti village tent slums they sleep in by th road.

Preyung monk guy..changes mantra to

money money money

Wen he saw me comming.

Yet field werker old timer..handshakes so gently..theres some resonance..intent

Genuine care..so touched..waves me on my way.

A heron crane flys by Truck belching soot. Small town crossroads AXIS bank delivers Please hide your secret code Th computer warbles in pidgeon english The man at the door has treasure fer all girls!

Although many look to be rather meek property items..in backs of lorrys or mini van famly full..sardines

hotel highway wedding venue mega plex

Falling apart childlike privatised fantasy

Names like

Ocean view (mid india mind you)

Dream laxmi sooper fun holiday

and

Regency maharaj executive

All some rinky dink decaying theme park dysfunction..sim city game...

Its like merchant economic marketing religeon has sectarian spread its capital viral empty dead apendages

God gone (or made a party politiccal tribal emblem of statis n authority in th human matrix)

Hungry corpse of illusion wails thrusts on tarmac of global colony.

The outter precincts are called colonys

I can only imagine th mafia don who organised that.

yeah..no movie

Novel

Culd sum up the existential crisis of this modern trash empire..

Egg burger hut dudes seem cool with it all.

Low income vendors..not there problem how the mighty shit over everything.

Theres tea on th hiway tho

And shiva on th menu who toots

(The menu is also frontage..they wont serve much..gruel n fryd bread and proud)

Woke up this morning..whats the essential nature of man?

Went t sleep listning t ayn rand audio book.

The fountainhead.

Yeah wow the public..

Make the work

keep the diy self realisation

Meem alive.

like wow dude

you culd have a real n interesting life too

As jail inmate nzild corp

Dont expect much fraturnal communication..real unreal battles..feverd self innitiation pilgrimages.

neural edumicational reference building architechture language reality

Obedience chip set

Well is there any other?

Whats arts werk?

Why are we here this side of maybe?

How many chances ya got?

Youll get dirty be very lonly

afraid and then

Itll change...

And change

Youll

be the change..self defineing the software.

Fractal unknowable god self in fragile self aware feedback loops..holograms built by the core directive..

The weak cowardly n conformist..will deny n try hold ya back....rationalist square paddock profit motive..white bread.

Damn...posthuman skitzo diatribe

mollest me imagination

Self soul planet..

Ape fertiliser!

Christ neo..

Thems who ..disavowed the soul

self..becone th imprint forced inta them

A suicide of moral integrity...

To class money..and ownership.

Externals...telling you who to be.

Propper normal goid.

family

work

Career

a well desighnd self.

Totally safe.

Lifes what happens when we are buisy makeing plans

And god laughs..

Or something like that.

Ahh down a litre of water

Some mango juice

Road bus appocalips..drink alot of water.

Very good.

The guy at the restraunt had a shrine fer a handsome young guy..garlands hang

Maybe some priest

Some guru

Na..my brother shot himself in head.

Black look in his eyes.

Ahh sorry man..thanks fer shareing

Mine too..hung himself

i makes neck gestures.

We still alive eh! I say.

So as long as only some works from a specific sanctiond period...under the dead wrappings of a emotionly illiterate used car sales man..from some booshwaa richy rich colony

Yes only some works..he realy was a bit much

We cant tollerate one

Who trys..

makes us so ...uncomfortable.

Whats yer essential nature?

Ego

Consciousness light dark..

Cave

Shadow

Illusion ..

freedom.

cos its gonna end..real soon

This is it..

None of it is ours..its all phenomina

Art acts that language out..inturnally..

Expands contracts..tests boundrys

Gets it wrong..

may if its lucky..get t be itself.

But we know what happens to children that are them selfs dont we.

I made it to a beaten up hotel motel.

Establishd eventually i needed a room.

Got one. I offerd tarif as they didnt understand.

Equally..huge kitchin goin on..

Couldnt order..thru sign language they didnt understand i wanted dinner.

But over n over in a mobbed way..where you from what country where u going..single?

Family?

No..im a genetic endtimes story.

Pretty sun set.

This guy in th dribbling shower bucket bath.

Crazy bus road..some festival.

Chai boys burns.

OH LOOK DICK FRIZZELS SELLING SINGLETS IN INDIA.or boys..maybe its a clone toy sex doll?..made out of nz wine n native hardwood?

Im sure the babyboomers apprietiate the waterd down frontage of a advert exec n his consumate taste.

Its so ...so...human to be a artist isnt it.

Love our property portfolios and winerys by the beach..

Round them all up..plastic bags over there heads

Gaffertape..make them werk in a prison youth rates

till they pay off every cent of every student loan n inflated mortgage in th land.

Sell there body parts to the chineese..

Experiment on there corpses fer the longevity drug ..

Ban there litriture n art

Kill therr progeny

Freeze assets

Haha were such a idealistic christian colony..everythings fine in skitzaphrenic alchoholic pedaphile lie land.

Keep picking the scab..youll never heal.

So WHATS THE ESSENTIAL NATURE OF MAN THEN MAN?

Well probly let a supercomputer werk that out fer us..install the bio port..hook up the nano particulats

Obey ...we shouldnt havta think..feel.

We just need money .. .

Oh some say love .connection

Meaning..

What we are to others

What we are to ourselfs..

Can you be with ya self?

Broken?

Wrong?

Unbearable?

What are ya then..

Forget about all that other shit

The people in ya head..

Echos of others

echos of others

Hooking on identity deferral ..

Fish in water dont know water

Strip it down.

Whats left.

Its a scary crazy exciting time t be alive

All these ideologys

Collapseing..

Being unconsciously made for us by unseen hands..manipulated.

Toward goals ..

Society class ownership

Selfhood

Faciesm

Totalitarian one world government

Death management.

Blink blink

Were not on a train to the gas chamber are we?

As long as you serve a use to the regeime

And never mention the regeme.

Play along..

We care for you.

People are good..

Hell life is sacred..

(Only the bits we controll mind)

Narrow the slits down to hand held devices

A beurocratic intelligence test of servility

Every time i ask a hotel or whatever if theres mosquitos they say no

I get big fukn welts from mosquitos.

So..

There liers.

Bastards!

Om shanti.

Hotel from hell. Drunk guy wanders inta m room at midnight telling me chipattis are ready. Walls exude days heat..so its over 40 lieing still sweating on lumpy matress N If th door in window open to get th moderate temp lower outside ya get bitten by bugs. I almost thumpd th drunk guy.. But settled fer yelling and brandishing a fist. Just walks in while im trying t asleap half naked..with cell phone to take images it lookd like. Couldnt get food last night..although they wrre cooking. There real friendly...but..dumb? Language problem. Gee havta try n not be a reactive prat this morn8ng. Im not very gracefull when im a fetish object to every mustached alpha in a turbin.. So very little sleep.. Whinge complete

Right..

Creating language

as gene host

Cosmic agent of fractal cosmos

Victor of eternal battles..

un needed to win

Nourashing

Intelligence

Primacy adaptive

Experiential being

Nothing something

Magnetic electro

Relationship

Wholely

Exist to contribute gifts

As we find each other

Is the self

Well the shanty shack guy with rice n pakora n unemployed guys hangin round. Acturally stepped up n gave me food!

Restaurants on th other hand..repeatedly time after time..i place a order..and nothing happens. Even when i make it 3xplicitly clear.

So i eat on th street..cos apparently fourteen guys need to pass the buck fer ever to cook a guy pancake n generic curry mush...

Even swankyish hotels ignore me..i dont get it..i loose the plot..raise m voice..get angry..storm off..so hard to get served.

Street guy vendor..kinda gets the fact humans need food..he relys on it.

Yay little guy..

Like werking kiwi painters..in enacted inturnal gesticulated process..

We deliver the goods eh.

Real estate

Bbc werld telling me how it is fer me

Me cell

Rest coupla days...

Slow down

Be..

Tulsi drops

Mail a diary home to ya friend

Jesus ya show off ya got one!

Dont drink th scum water even if ya boil it

Get a stainless steel kettle.

Big event

Have a poo.

Think..feel..

being smaller Observant Reverent inside..self care Makes it all less work .more..wonderfull. Its getting that mix eh.assertion n hustle

N flow n acceptance.. Pple have totally been stareing at me

Its not bothering me as much Funny feeling fer a often paRanoid guy.. But its acturally real ya kind know where y at. Pple think n act all different ways. Some kindly Sone jaw drops Some stare zombie rude Some hand goes out automaticly Some ignore ya..just another person Some look ashamed Some smile n laugh Some look like ya confronting them personally with ya existence Some smirk like What you doin here ? Others look agrieved n incredulous like i violated them. Strange ol gig...ghetto tourism. Officially it aint a ghetto But...looks like one t me... But people are pple.. Same same...

the ten thousand things

We notice on THE WAY

Increadably decent chap in man mani hotel...super cheep.

Telling me of th sights..

Ok i had t clean th last guys cig buts on th floor n poos of th loo bowl..

But th fan werks good

I got hbo lobotomy if i want..

Road was easy tday too..

Musta been that extra qi gong i did yestaday

or the holy tulsi basil.

Travel is strange now

I could be any where it all seems like the same place..

A congealing matrix of feudal poverty

Increadably uglee civic infrastructure looking mostly maori job ish

(I say that with a human pride)

..demolition aesthetic

Dirt

Petro robot

Digital edumicational cluster of compounds..dark grimy tea shacks

Cows faceing down busses..on moterway

A marrage cult like primary school architype implant

Trucks laiden with village field werkers

Eye contact from behind his helmit..grin

Psychic mirror

Foreighner hooning in black on black bike

That smileing teen

May never get to do this..probly not.

Yet above me theres suv of wealthy raj dudes who obviously own the rd.

Were all playing out our parts in th world show

Outter world of appearances anyway.

Is that attitude born of my mental privledge aswell?

I wonder at these school complexs..boasting pictures of of serious pravatninananda who got 92 % in his maths exam..boosting the schools reputability n commercial viability.

Spoze they want more for there kids ..

Than ghetto trash town.

Maybe they dont see it?

Dunno..

I dunno..

Pick up trash at th beach..

Try not to voice negativity as much

or if ya do

dont identify it as ya self

Its just toxic mood self justifications leeching

Its all energy

Ya trap ya self

Hmmm

Something profound..ummmm

Oh yeah

Forgive ya self

Not as a pass to a bad person

But as a unfolding of the inevidable totality of the good ya cant doom cos its the thing seeing as ya.

In ya heart..

And sun

Blood

Atom..thingy.

The introspective information we have today about th nature of reality

Of self

Should not be narrowly controlled to a irrigation ditch fer big agri geneticly modifyed seed monoculture.

Hmm the play of the child

As nature..intelligence

Imagination dream

Makeing in the physical.

Weve secret knowledge at our metaphysical taste buds..like no other age

Its awe inspireing

What we can focus on

Like a god

Of divination

Biology

Physics

Astronimy

Chemistry

This stuff is mans language form of incremental understsnding to the whole.

Sacred..even.

It seems theres forces of destruction

And creation at play..or war

In our souls..culture civilisation

Unconscious material from ancient times

Cycling on n on

Not gonna get all sidhartha onnit

But

At source..

at source..

We must come from. Energy

Being

Non being.

Its practicle as it is theological

Pollution self harm

Greed poverty sickness suffering

Money

Privite public

Corruption

Abuse

Ignorance

Theft

Jelosy.

Envy

Conflict..

We have vantage points now..as the elite ancients couldnt have drempt of..

How does a actualised free

Kind compassionate successfull healthy

Process take hold.

Immune responce

Shock evolutionry choice

Underpinning of socialised structure of me

Retaining identity unique..

Genome time wave

Esculating

Death

Light

Self

Time

All

Your

Few to many tangents unresolved clearly

Something

We serve a sence of something nessesary with our lives

Call that searching if ya want

Or hope

Or fear of missing out..

Not to know th implications

Of this time

Or life

Not to aprehend the living information

as it is

Precious

Revolting

Is to not be open

Gotta be open to th muse

Ya dont tell it

Ya listen ya notice

Or ya kill it

Scare the majic away

Ya ray beam of narrow measurement n linear assumptions

As to who you are.

Shells made by other pples storys in ya.

Intuition

Synchronisity

Feeling

Yes even the depression

Rage grief hate n

Lost innocence..

Maybe not lost

If wonder

And majesty

N terror even...

Exist in us.

Not post human

Concrete fly overs

Economic religeo brainwash

Priest of spin

But that too is the world story

whats most true remains

What isnt true dies.

Is death th end?

Hitching a ride on anothers vaulnerability in a moleculer soup ..

Smaller dimentions squashing labratorys into patents.

I dont know

I like listening to credable ideas..

I think media is a miopia device of distortion..

Creating the reality we believe in and in turn make.

I make reactive feedback loops of not looseing myself

Suddenly theres a steller nursery

And

Veils shift in the apocalips..

Thats enough

Humans Were drawn to these objects of fantasy.. That Display aspects of imaginary . .possability Of our power to create manifest asx nature does As proof were as good as naturr Better..as god! I dunno about that.. But seems to be th theme.. Mass Escapeism...with th richest offering th grandist bullshit to justify there spot. Is it inverse to attainments inner in a collective sence..? One reflects tother. Is th grandiosity..realy a secreation between worlds of a higher dimention form guideing us ? Is that th battle field of our souls Culturally..collectivly. Indians seem pretty sure of them selfs there routines beliefs ritualised customs.. Secure might be a word..nestled in religeon..famly..state.... The western outsider type.. We Cultivate dis belief.. . Leaveing effemera...lots of whirling inputs... Phantoms.. Its alot like a collapseing sence of self A dieing...empire... Or something.

Family disolution

deconstruct self..

maluable vaulnerable

medicated

Dependant...isolated Or re assessing..as a new skin thinks itself growing on th feverd planet.. If that Lasts more than a tech neural aluminium layer on a choclate is another story...

Shoe covers fer holy marble.

Isnt it amazeing what ancient trillionares can do for ththere big virtue signal with all there slaves...like a hedron collider a moon base...pet grooming chainstore franchise..

Well i cryd at th taj.

More a exhausted self pitying existential futility ..and lonly alienation of shit bag country over pop petrol digi economy hustle ..swearing at touts again..yelling at dudes who push in front of ya in ine

Or th jeeps that bear down on ya screeming there horn with all that class urgancy.

Its a paradox..hard not to be a tourist when im a tourist..but then im part of the mechanism that fuels the awfull tourist industry..makeing countrys inta theme parks and pple into consumers.

The road seems like a primitive ego animal extention..

Reversion

Where I "I" AM GOING ...AM GETTING THERE

AHEAD OF YOU!

all mes pushin n slipping over each other

Both skillfully and manipulativly opportunist..with lots of risk..

But th telepathic flow capacitor seems t orchistrate a benevolent out come

Forceing me

No..suggesting to me in evidence based observation and participation the wizdom of her ways..

This serpentine mutation of foul toxicity ever revving multitude

Never look while pulling out..crossing th road

With ya whole extendard family on ya scooter ..laxidaisicly meanders cutting ya off..1000 times a day

Arrogant stupid fucktards!

Thanks fer having me tour thru yer awsome shit hole of hell country and look after me good and also i respect you all do things yer own special way

MORON BASTARD PRICKS

LIFES precious

So we assume everyone else wont kill us on the road.

Ive got a european made black helmet n padded jacket with armour bits

Im being very conservative with my telepathic flow ..and...not lashing out too much..hell i even give way lots...smile at the expressionless stares that follow me.

INSTINCTIVE INDIVIDUALISM petro doller extinction soul slavery harvest.

We all get privledges sure..from the machine madness..but th cost..

Im so far from th hippy organic spiritual dree thinking anarcho commune art radical village of utopian elitist fantasy

And round here the cost of this modernity looks like slum hell.

But someone some systemic extention is still makein money from this..atrocity.

Make babys make babys

Get t holy ganges

Oh right th neclear power facility on th river is closed n n all guest houses full

With werkers

But a shitty wee place with nice boys running it..

do have a spare spot..yay. turns out its ok fer 8$ a night.

So..cummin up against my own crap alot here..as much as the place.

Cos as much as i hate it

And i do..

INDIA IS A ABSOLUTE SHIT HOLE

No question.

I feel im a witness fer immanent heat death..cum crop failure infrastructure collapse..ahem

As much as its a cruddy grunge broken corrupt rubbish pile of skellitons on th take

Its also full of increadable moments friendly

Faces ..goodwill kindness..as everyone is in on th big joke of the facade of civilisation iz a thin illusion

To our soul story in th as the material

Dunno..

So..even tho im a cunt and i hate it

Forgiven when i see im a cunt..and try a different attitude in th next interaction.

Reaction..come from a different me

In that way..we know ourselfs

Adversity forces evolution?

Hmmm na thats a bit linear sounding

Its not a moral pyrimid to protect th ego from any wrong doing

There is no wrong doing..just echos plucking strings on echos in deeper folds in time n memory loop programming

Wow called "self"

So many of them in here

Fluid faceted..illusionry

But still a form unto its self

This self..

Nature is probly the best analogy..in describeing this.

Leaf floating down stream

My friend says a bit. Meaning a certain fatilism of character n acceptance sirrender i guess.

Im pretending im a horse man of th apocalips drivin round one of the oldest human cultures around.

I could be!

Just get me to the soma dude!

Need my kundalini awakening right!

Na..crappy sweet tea n bad food..thats fine.

Acturally four days of no shitting

And i finally made a deposit in the government neclear facility..which was

Immaculate 1950s village military look.

Full of personel gaurds n moppers

All glad of a job i spoze that lookd like sitting around. Lotta official sitting around in india.

The road was bent n potholed like scabs a thousand years old..busses n frail old men on old style bikes..oblivious to th bus

Jesus theres a baby in th road

Ill just slowly go around that item.

Roads are kinda communial it seems

Every one gets a point of valid obstruction

My life matters!

By implyed threat to its safty

In the public theatre

Of road.

And commerce at that reptile end of the spectrum.

This is a guy ironing.on th road.

Dont say hinduism isnt progressive..

Chip packets like preyer fkags..double as long lasting neighbourhood adornment after use

This fella i can see it..ive seen the white car style..they bob n weave at far too fast and with great entitlement. He probly clipped a truck he was overtakeing in a obnoxious dangerous way..hate t say it

They have it comeing..such ass sucking pricks the car driveing indian..tooting incessantly (like they dont blog james)

Screeming up behind blareing horn..arrrrrg

Doller big boss inner wear (who me collonised?)

None of my urban snaps capture the depressing matrix feel..of crouded hot stinking fumeing spitting inmates

Fat guys makeing sweets.

Food is HAND MADE here..and even tho the place is above a sewer well rub out greasy mits all over the yellow balls.

I dunno

Maybe theyve great immune systems.

I HAVNT HAD FOOD THAT A WOMAN HAS COOKD YET.

JUST MAN SLOP.

Although t be fair...the MANGO SMOOTHIE IS DEVINE !

Ahh goddess ganges...took road north..was rural simple virdant healthy even.

Convoys of suger cane to suger factory

Get t hotel. Any hotel. In crazy town..ass is in pain..th seat aint th best..

GUy has to check with th police if i can stay..wait. ahh ok.

And wait

Dude shall i go somewhere else?

No you sit down!

Ill go get a tea eh.

Hour later

Im allowed his precious room. Get hustled fer tips..na i dont think so ..

Hour later buzzing at door..sighn paper for intelligence dept..

Na fuk off im sik of you diks

Buzz buzz sir sir..you must sighn

Im real tired n cross cant get a shower and indian hospitality is appalling

I puncture th page with a aggressive signiture thats mocking there beurocracy controll drama

Im a guest i been rideing all day..let me rest.

10 min later..a gang of earnest geeks confront me..its 9 pm

I arrived at 4. You must sighn or get out!

Last thing i want is to be filling out intelligence security questionaires or on th street totally irate n exhausted.

I fill out the forms swearing angrily..

Do ya qi gong to chill out

Buzz buzz obnozious door alarm..

They just wont leave me alone!

Fuk in nz im friendly with indians

My attitude may change

They are morons..i think middleclass brahmin ..

Total entitlement controll trip.

Its a joke..

Still the sane man would be unreactive

Me..i get cross lippy n yell at the pricks.

then th heat comes on the mosquitos

Ya cant sleep..good times.

The matrix is on the tv..of course it is.

i turn it off when im im disturbed again

By my pals.

But simalarily a decent guy will not even care about paperwork next place..its a mystery. I felt like a criminal.

Couldnt find food..either..nothing i wanted to eat...these citys are mutated hindu ghettos of filth...

Watch a doco on india..dont come its a shit hole nightmare fulla ahhh indians!

Fancy daycoor...couldnt see this kinda place last night..askd th guy why woman dont cook ever (implying perhaps it may be more imaginative or wholesome perhaps)

He didnt think he askd alpha boss man behind till..i said..i asked you not him..

knowing the age of young guy..

But this is it

He doesnt think

Defers to elder..who has a cultural bias he got taught and so on n so on.

Kinda make me glad im a product of disfunctional western individualistic liberal feminism realy..

Get t wash my own undies in a bucket n flirt with adventurous academia in mythic cliche personality broadcast vaccuume void broadcast culture.

Makeing some cracker werk in me noodle

Yeah..self permission

Domestic scale..

Sell all them bitchs some good art

God said to do.

wow.. I scored a great guest house.. That conservative mid class thing i was complaining about..which seemd like buncha pencil pushers lording over the werkers This one is a compleatly diffrent vibe..like hotel n public school mixed. Restaurant mess hall v v good kai cheap. Theres steps inta th ganges fer dunk..from there lawn Its cheap 600 rps a night 13$? I took too nights with ac

(im nxt t loo mind you) But yeah...casual modern..and kinda th indian version of my grandma vibe with conservative religeous iconography around I love my gran So ill behave. Very cool. Th rest of th towns ...were full ...full of mass tourisn joints. My heart was breaking...how it gets so pervrtedly wrecked This is like some ancient traditional famly guest house/hotel. And checking in was simple!..thank you lord krishna.and pals.

isnt it wonderfull too tho...to be alive at the rotting scuzzy bit of fallen cosmic fruit

That we are. FEAR NOT WEE SPACE BACTERIUM..WEE PHOTONIC SMILE IN NO TIME.. the media mind takeover inturnal global heist collectivism heard demographic rewire dis identify with ya own soul.

But.isnt a forgone conclusion..see prison aint as fun as reality of what this acturally is and funny thing bout human is its memory of truth and true self cant be extinguisd..even in guilded cages.

Hipcritical sermons and shooting ya mouth of moto boy ventures.

Feeling...memory...illusion...time...being

There were alotta girl affirmation pictures by th ganges ghat in rishikesh..most had the faces chiseld off. Pretty telling. Disturbing Maybe th local friendly islam guys?

Great anecdotal narration of yer perplexing karmic social war game with Socially backward geek men. (Meaning its not just you!) Yes i see it all... Im writhing in pain with gastrointestinal diareha medication Immodium Had severe sulphuric belch n fart n runs aplenty Sharting three pantys In a freezing cold Pretentios resort hotel overcharged cos i wanted a heater at 3000 meters.. Big ask luxury item Burn plastic on street tho..fine fine. They cut power off to me..no hot wster light stumbling to loo in night. Over n over again. Yeah big boss tracksuit n cap banging on door..check out go away! Fukn hell th sham of these pretentious dik wads n hospitality... I demanded another night Told them off fer turning power off And am resting with a dead farting creature in my gut Some re heated curry i expect.. So i am at war often with indian scum Also on trail...trust is thin.. And as a single individual white guy i am not considderd important. Like big price fer room onlyvto be forced t share with 7 others. (I trod someones sunnys under foot in that exchNge and dissed him out angrily infront of mates..) Prepared to fight. No sleep torchs in my eyes...buncha privledged fuks on camp..rrrrr So yeah..highs n lows mate. Was aiming fer mountainous area not far..real big lotsa snow very fkn cold. Hotspring valley off main road.. Before got crook! Hope it goes tday..very yukky Although not so ass water now. Not gunna eat..just drink. Got some thermals some nylon pants with fleese inside socks n boots new skivvy poly prop But indian stuff is shonky quality. Wrangling flights with nz agent Lost 400$ from quantus for changeing itinery..to canada Appaling loss. Still.. Havnt crashed Or punchd anyone(aka law issues potentially) Was yelling at a guy overtskeing me on a scooter on a corner on th inside with trucks n busss next to me..! Who nudged me aswell!!! I yelled so well Scared him so much..he wobbled n fell off in th gutter. I might of excellerated parellel to him aswell to menace him...all very slo mo.. He came a cropper I pulled over to see if he was maimed.. Wasnt. Bike ok too. He was pissing urgently from shock i imagine. He realy was ok...so i turnd back aborted that journey.hindu pilgrim trail. Th hot pool is a hindu thing too dammit. Shiva meditated there..aparently. What ever there stupid childish minds want to hang on to from th middleages.. Stupid wogs Still..theres human beings in them too.. So i cant allow me to be a creep too much. Note im back in civilisation n th resent starts again. Theres sure to be other good open majical bits. Even survivin th thing thus far...is something. Detatching from me..at home finally. Accepting...hmm Other maybes. Eh Canada ect. Kinda firming up a month in iceland fer trekking too a stop over to halifax canada Should be high summer there. And in canada wen i get there. But fuk its cold here now..and i was planning to go ever more north! Inta th barren bits. Constsntly farting...huge guffs.. Lord ..i want to keep trekkjng but will be moderate about it..realy taxd meself that one past. But fer alot of cold n wet n no heating.. Tulsi oil Holy basil Has seen me right! Few drops in water..anti bacterial viral fungal Helps immune ect ect..so glad. Some wench keeps giving me looks thru th bedroom window.. So violating...no privacy here. Fukn indians rrrrr My werst side has come out alot.. And unashamedly...im a cross rude white guy defensive n suspicious.. Maybe thats too harsh.. Just Kill them all! Love

Road werks to big pilgrim mountain

Hey

Lets destroy it. Make anything beuatifull a huge econonic expansion

Let th werkers live in tarpaulin shanty tents

Massive dangerous congested narrow roads..many crashs cos every one pushs n shoves in indian arrogant fashion.

Still friendly guy next t me on scooter

I droppd th bike..in slow motion steep turn by hitting a rock..no harm or damage

And good test to lift it. Think its 230 kg.

Heavey.

Th road landscape slaughter eventually gave way to pastural stepped vilkages

Im hopeing theres some nature left.

Got a month to get to leh

A vipassana retreat.

Feelin pretty good after havin ganges swim..and oh i dunno doin th whole india thing and succeeding.

As i keep mentioning..not a day goes by where there isnt profound reflection.

Although i hate it.

It couldnt be anywhere else.

I sence th religion of money and state bite to th core .ravishing ..in revolting blooms

Of infection..in contrast bizzare psychic bubbles of ancient custom worship.

Im makeing progress..i mean im.pretty far gone..the anxious frothy ego identitty reacting with everyone else..

Still feel the best is in here..

the gratitude in me

For this trip

The fragile meaninglessness of value a life seems to hold in this social hive of 13 thousand million people

Carrying capacitys

Regeneration

Futures werth living

Im a romantic..

Meaning something truest in my human

Thinks th machine shouldnt do my living for me.

That weve a soul

Quantumn entaglement

Dimentional flux

Multiple resonances..abilitys..yearning

healing in the wound thats birthing death

Dis identifying with the taught encrusted

Socialised external software interface

And falling in love

Wonder..

Hell

No hope

Voice echo in th cheap wayside hotel

Spider man sheets

Dirty purple walls..twinkling lights on the unfathomable steep slopes hosting

Humans.

The privledge of knowing ya self

Just alowing it to be him

Following some thread..practiceing not practiceing

(Stocking up on coffee drinking green tea)

Indian pop doof doof

Satan wears bling

Chews tbacci in little plastic pouchs

Goes fast on his apachi raceing bike

Theres something im trying to get at

Something genuine

Authentic

In the superficial facade of self or culture

Not betraying one for th other

Not saying yeah i need my beuaty on my my terms

Or wisdom in soft oriental cliches

Peace is the absence of war .

Integreated every moment possable in being

And if ya shit on the carpet my pet we will rub ya goddamnd nose in it

The many ways of gods

RUPIN PASS IN NATIONAL PARK GOVIND..SOMETHING OR OTHER UTTERAKAND STATE

(Having avoided mass mountain tourism n road death of child jeep drivers to gangotri ) he decides to go fer a solo hike in th hills

Description of such forthwith.

Hullo dear Thanks fer always reliably eventually getting back to me. Wow tramp was awsome Hard! In that i was unused to it..carrying tent..and only nuts n raisins fer food. Lotsa homestays. And a established trekking route too...so i was alongside th companys alpha boys starting ..th season..got lotsa advice All simple fer them n locals..stroll on a 4x4 road! Bit complex with getting thru th myriad stone slate cliff hugging towns.. Which you wooda lov3d! Yeah blue type..you probly should get advice on that..you may be simply cuting it..or copying it.. its all still there. Fukin pain tho poor you. Still.. Like a werkout You still win. Maybe yer deep spiritusl self is editing fer ya? Hey youll love this Lotsa weed on th trail...wee seedlings. Last day i chewed a coupla mouthfulls Like a cow Wasnt in use as far as i see...in villages But it did give a mild euphoric body relax Dreamy nice open.poetic greatfull vibe. Id like to be that guy all th time! Coulda been th qi of river air tree And healthy exercise too And th coffee detox i did. Wont happen again sir Just seemd like a small experiment...

After 80k there n back march Then th road out was this epic pothole forrest development saga of mud. Oh Th narcotics police were all around th base camp village..and my bike was parked with this lovely old guy who gaurded th bridge lives in a plastic shanty hut.. (I tipped go0d) Anyway..battery was compleatly flat Drug macguiver guy in jeep with indian audience of many boys men (alwsys) Watched him strip some wire with teeth Hotwire th battery from his jeep.. Yeah! They were trekking th backblocks fer opium farmers..no way youd get rid of weed! I didnt collect more or get obsessive So feel ok. Then on highway after fryed potato pancake n vege stew combo.. Got in a bad rainstorm.. Put on all wet westher gear (only had keens n tiny addidas ankle socks on feet) Battle gear on...i did remail reasonbly dry! And inturnal pack too. Core temp was low..was shakeing. Luckily roads quite developed lifestyle hill country.. In a expensive govt tourist hotel... Talkd t berry on ph. So spent all night obsessing on next tramp... Im a bit early in season fer th realy good ones. Im in right area...snow on pass3s n all. Im happy being solo guy.. On th fringe of th companys trails which they dont own.. Good tracks in other werds with groups hearded thru of uo to 50..porters cooks n all. No white pple stephen. City indians. Got a columbia goose down sleeping bag fer 120$ second hand from homestay...fuk needed it ..was so cold on th top near water fsll..lots more snow than that article. All they said was true..was picturesque Genuine mountain villages Tea shops friendly pple Also jaded annoyed pple. So...just ass3ssing choice now next. Theres a hot pool place where shiva apparently meditated fer ages Kheer ganga...a short walk Sourounded by rural homestsys. Kinda think Hamner in tramping version..semi developed. Will have them indians too tho. And im suspect of all religeous hindu shit now Its braindead auto hypnotic croud controll. Theres a populer town not far from there With more trekking supplys Hard very hard t find in indiA Im going to iceland after so good to get my nz equivalent gear see. Im carrying Three sets of stuff now Tramping basics Bike basics Personal basics Its streamlined efficient But still alot of shit. My feet are wrecked! I want more trekking But...also...need a rest. I followed th guys i met th guides th first day on th rupin pass walk They went all th way to th hanging village in one day 27k...and me twice there age with heavey bag 15kg And them with light day bags. In th hail n rain. I was almost hypothermic when i got there..! Soooo steep ..up a path xig zag fer 90 min School kidds jogging home from next villaGe school in bright uniforms un perturbed by rain.. Old folk out fer evening cow heading on cobbled paths.. Still building houses with stone quarried from side of path Just unbelievable. As ever...constant developnent And economy..roads being bulldozed wider ..power poles goin in.. Everything had a price tag. Tea A maggi they love maggi noodles..its weird..its a staple! Im raveing...just i wouldnt have expected remote himalayan series of national park to be so..so...populated by a net work of Increadably hard werking local farmers Ancient in modernity Like eco fantasy self sufficient villages Georgus wheat apple orchards Cows goat sherp.. Chickens. Lotsa mule n donkey..terraces endless terraces organic contours

And th most preposterous hights these different communitys clinging to 3000 metre sides of granite glacier riped valley hills...rushing water below. When i made green tea in yellow tin mug when i went to th pass.. It was with a wee ember cook fire. No gas canisters in india. Good path...i did fuk it up sometimes n improvise. Few risks. Like crossing a snow bridge up on a slope...half way across on th worn keens.. Reasliseing..hmm nothin to hang on to.. Feet are slipping on ice Oh I slip i fall 100 meters slideing on hard ice..to bottom ripping his flesh... Hmmm better slowly retreat. Ended up going up th scree n grass slope next to shoot of ice snow (So v v nz !) Crossing v steep very high at great cost physicly But on rocks n Delightfull rhododendron growing on craggy slope. But yeah..ya get there...pitch ya tent well And.it hails and rains fer two hours hard out. Good cheep tent! Dry! Then sun set n some amazeing rainbows.. So yeah.. Get amounst it planet earth.. While ya can. Ice age Heat desth Urban viral spral of oil addict economys.. And maggi packet rubbish. Although th mountain waS clean..like a temple Yes..still rubbish thrown thoughlessly.. In small bits. Akay theres a report son....was so amazeing to embody a walk in journey

I feel im here

As in am travelling ..th torrential sweat chaffing legs buttocks

Th rain n cow shit

Th chippatti n sweet tea in awsome family homestay beutifull baby held by grandad

Passed to famly members relatives constantly being held adored. Crying seldomly.

Th digging the field by hand at 5am back breaking woman labourer

Th chai shop fraternal possee of local layabouts smileing ..recounting martin crowe as great criketer to me. (Cheers all whites or whatever ya called) X Photos t follow

And ill never forget sitting round the fly blown small wooden fired kitchin acturally chatting or attempting to with the wife n daughter makeing me chippatti n stew

Maybe cos they saw me wash my own sweatdrenchd rags in bucket in there loo?

Or the angry james yelling butch to th giggling gaggle of 7 indian guys he had to bunk with ..who wouldnt shut up n sleep

(Im paying tourist money there free)

Arrogant pricks indian guys..its why nz werkin gals often say NO INDIANS

Too right lady! I couldnt sleep with them .

Last day im resting at dhoula great place

Confluence of rivers n bridge from paper jeep road deep in park..

Walk up a steep stair path fer something to do..do qi gong up there..

Huge slabs of marble stairs like a lions project or something..

Its beuatifull cedar n pine..views up various valleys birds i never seen before

Cukoos

Just wearily float up n up n up..meditating on rocks

Hypnotised on river song

Keep going up n up

Write some observational poem

Insight

Hell im a ROMANTIC

THIS IS SOUL RETREAVAL

Keep goin up n up

Im soaked again in my dry gear dammit!

Suns out..it ok

Discover yepthis aint a touist view point path

But main route to three farming villages

Way th fuk up

Ok..quitly look around..flys bite

Blood dribbles

Th trees are curiously all burnt at th base on purpose..th sap bled n ignited

Hollows are formed

Deep dark charrd wound wombs

Litter collects inside

Pinecones

A tobacco packet cast aside.

Mysterios arbourist activity

all th trees have this

Ive seen how fire is used in other forrests

Uglee..burnt ground cover..charred

Bizzare..

Airy vantage points above..

Being draind of blood the tiny black house fly buzzin

Go down zen path impossable steep decent

Almost bottom..can see th mule trains carrying coke n chips

Auto parts n sanitary pads

Cross th bridge

Have a wee self cogratulary sit down zone in..in sun

Theres this is struggling figure heavily cummin up path with a big backpack loaded..real grind obviously

Skinny guy leather jacket..

I at first dont wanna bbe seen..

You know objectifying his toil..tourist white privledge all that.

Me a poetic recreational dandy

Him a living man mule local.

He notices me

Shouldnt havve..that telepathic thing..we all sence when pple notice us..eh

Reader

We are very close you n i

Just a quantumn brain fart aaway

Stops..flops down beside me on flat rock

Exhausted panting

First local i seen sweat dribblin down face

He rolls around writhing in frustrated agony crying out uttering some candid curses n expleatives im sure in what ever language they have up here.

Its touching hes shared th pain

Intimate..

My winess has heloed his struggle even

Audience

I try n lift bag..old 1960s army canvas job

Fuckin hell bro thats gotta be 50 kilo!

I couldnt lift it

Took me 2 hours to ascend them stairs to them village farmlets

This guy..all ..i dunno 60kg of him

Carrying suger wheat tobbacco up fer his cuzzies up there

Slavery job maybe..maybe hes got a kid t feed needs th work..

Maybe hes a crim getting punished?

Maybe he gets to smoke opiem all day after n get his dik sukd? Dought it

Just a increadably humbling wee exchange fer me

Jetting about on a glamer bike

Walkin hills with me stephen king book

N diarys..

And this animal primal painfull labour of physical endurance concentration n agony of effort

Like mind body strength

Like birth n death

He was hurting man and only just begun going up.

Truly real n terrorfying.

Christ

Everyday back blocks indian man

Carrying the chippatti n sweat tea home

To his people

Fukin weeping

Cos id like to belong n mean something to something like that

Do sonething that matterd

Serve

Wanted

Tribal animal

Fuk off google ya cunt algoryrhem satanic grey meem of oil gkobalist faciest anti human

Cancer economy

Dead kennedys

Give me convienience or gimmie death

Play that on student radio mind mush these days?

Shoulder that debt fer the elders.

Kay..sermin commenceth befre im a asshole

Want a rare hot shower anyway

Flash hotel.(30$)

Cultivated hills apple frost cloth like fuzzy fungass on sides haphazard drawing or shaveing cut blotter.

State bank india traffic rules brings us shiva imf silk road primate might is right get away with what ya can and uglee is development.

Mccaon waz ere

Location location location

3000mtrs sick town

Th healing ceiling

Bee hive

Attractive progressive architexture

Road honey harvest

Dead creature pain belly.

Dihareha..shart ya pantys ×3

Fever

Weak

Very cold..hotel turns off power on my room

No use heater male kitch statis symbol

Stumble t loo in dark n cold heaps of times wet ssocks toilet water

..hotel next to good one.

Yell at th cunt managers...

Muster strength go to good one

run by a woman!

Guess what..i tell em im sick n need to recover..they ask how i am in th morning!!

Thats professional..ya pay extra fer that.

Noises on pre fever sweat sleep soaking everything..but comfortable

Monkey pops in gingerly .. Th street cricket match th yelling th masonry drill the jeep getting loaded th accellerating bus the toot irrithmic toots ..small voices near far..younf old.. th echos inside building th feet outside the chortling crows.. The chorling crows In communication yes A primal talk Wood beaten ..quasi rythmicly